Snow globe...

I have a lot of thoughts crammed into my head since I went into hermit mode for the holidays.

My brother is out of critical care. Hooray!
He has a new Ipod with a few accessories under the tree waiting for him.
He also has a totalled truck thanks to the local drug dealer who smashed into it Tuesday night and then left. Thankfully his mother is an honest person and gave us their insurance info.

Christmas/Birthday was bland. Uncle Victor, Aunt Pat, and cousin Christina came down. But it was not the same holiday without my brother and my uncle bubba. The only gifts I was really wild about were my new computer and my college ring. I was with mom when she bought 90% of my gifts. I hate it when Christmas isn't a surprise.
I miss being a little kid and getting so excited. I miss loving the holidays and waiting to make cookies for Santa. Being an adult sucks.

Still sick.

I have the tickets to the HOB for NYE & a hotel booked and payed for. I have my outfit picked out and ready to go. Down to the accessories like purse, shoes, jewelry. Going to be fabulous!

Drivers License still hasn't shown up in the mail. WTF?

I went to HEB in Friendswood yesterday to buy my mom's NYE traditional foods since Kroger did not have them when I went Saturday. Cabbage, black eyed peas, salt pork, champagne. Gross. I ran into a friend from HS. And when I was checking out the checker was flirty. It hit me hard bc he reminded me of Wes so much. A high school ring with a bright blue stone. A big smile. Definitely a FHS senior. I spent most of the day after that in a daze remembering my first innocent love. Albertsons. Fall/Winter. My faith being destroyed. He will forever have a special part of my heart. I miss you Wes. The world just isn't the same without you.

Aunt Pat, Uncle Victor, and cousin Christina went home yesterday early afternoon. I took Christina with me and Erica on a few adventures. Christmas night we went bowling. Friday night we went to buffalo and played some crazy hunting game. Saturday we went to the mall. I think I was finally getting her to come around. I feel sorry for her. Not in a pathetic way. But in a "I want to take her under my wing" way.

Kristy's car was f-ed up in a weird way. I wish I knew what to do to make the situation better.
I am looking forward to seeing her this week though!

This week my homesickness for Beaumont was almost unbearable. My sister has decided she wants to go to Lamar. And I want to go back to school for a degree in finance, a teacher cert, and my MBA. I guess I'm crazy and I just can't get over my bad relationships. Ryan and Beaumont seem to have a hold on my heart indefinitely.

I'm sick of work. I have a pile of receipts. Bitchy emails and voice mails. I feel like sending out lumps of coal to all these losers.

Oil trading below $40 a barrel makes me sick. I am one person who hates $1.40 gas.

I miss my dogs. I hate sleeping in my bed alone, it feels unnatural.

Wednesday cannot get here fast enough.

Good bye 2008, you were good to me.

Hello 2009, you are a mystery.