Just when you thought it was safe

This weekend was a bit rough with all the drama, old emotions revisited, and feelings dug up from the backyard.
What started as a weekend of epic awesomeness turned into a weekend of drama, tears, and what ifs.
Saturday was Party in the Pines, an event I have been looking forward to for quite some time. A male friend who I have never shown any interest in as well as making it perfectly clear I wasn't interested ended the evening with bringing out his psycho side. So instead of enjoying my new friends, I ended up crying hysterically to the cheerleader.
The cheerleader rescued me and dealt with the psycho.
I have an awesome ex-boyfriend.
However, his "knight in shining armor" evening left me pondering why we aren't together now all day Sunday.
For someone who seems to care about me still, and still seems semi-attached, he has told me no enough times to know better than to ask again. If he wants more, he is going to have to make that clear.

I was hung up on that all day Sunday, along with the fear that psycho would return, until another guy I had significant feelings for told me he missed me.
Thanks for that.

I was an absolute emotional mess between 12am Sunday and 11pm Sunday. I awoke with a swollen face from my hysterical nonstop crying, an aching heart, and a messy mind full of thoughts racing about.

My mind never stopped which left me drained this morning when I finally convinced myself to roll out of bed. This should make for a fun night at the sleep lab.

I just want to know if & when I get my happy ending? Because this kind of stuff is really taking a toll on me and those concrete walls are only getting taller.