Too tired too sleep

We've all had a nightmare or two in our life. Sometimes it's always the same thing, sometimes they're different, but it's never pleasant. However, most of you don't have nightmares on a regular basis.

But me, I'm not like the normal population. I have nightmares at least 5 nights a week. It is simply exhausting to sleep because I never feel rested after a whole night of terrors.

I can thank my friend, narcolepsy, for my endless nights of awful sleep.

Even naps typically consist of bad dreams.

I've made changes to my lifestyle, tv programming, diet, alcohol consumption, sleep routines, EVERYTHING. And nothing changes my dreams.

To make it even better, I have started sleep walking more & talking in my sleep. I will even sit up in bed, eyes open, and talk. (Freaky isn't it?)

Since right after christmas, about the time a new guy came into my life, my bad dreams have seemed to have slacked off but I am not convinced they're completely gone. And it's not like I'm sleeping any better.

I still dream all night long, still wake up tired, still need my medication to keep from having sleep attacks during the day. I'm still trapped in the reality that is narcolepsy.

I still talk in my sleep, still move in my sleep, and I am sure the sleep walking hasn't ended as well.

Next week, I have to visit my sleep doctor to get my provigil renewed. And I think we need to have an indepth discussion about the nightmares and sleep walking. Something has to frekin' give before I lose my mind.

I would give anything to never dream again.