Overflowing

I know my posts are few and far between but sometimes you just run out of words. I can post feelings and thoughts in 140 characters or less constantly, but actually writing out a well composed blog post can sometimes be a big challenege.

But after this weekend, I have a lot in my mind I need to let spill out into words.

I'm not going to gab about SAS10 or RK at Gruene or the drama of Friday night. None of that really feels important enough to go on & on about. Either you were there or you weren't.

No, instead I am going to spill my thoughts and emotions that were provoked by a call from my mother Saturday morning.
Well actually I missed the first 11 in a row before I finally got up and answered. (Friday was a rough night so sleep & the hangover really made me not feel like moving before 10.)
Upon answering I was blasted with screaming, accusations, demands, all about something I knew nothing about.
She is so wound up and in her own little world, that her failure to communicate was my fault. Of course.
When in doubt, always blame Priss. She will take it, make it better, and let it go. Always works out.
I know this is a result of all the stress she's under from dealing with my brother. And yet, I am tired of excusing the batshit crazy behavior and verbal abuse.
He is reeping what he sowed. Please stop white washing it. Please stop rewriting history and making him the prodigial son who always got the raw end of the deal.
Don't preach to me and then do the total opposite. That really doesn't persuade me to change my feelings.
He did this. And now he has to suffer the consquences.
My compassion is all gone.
Don't corner me and attempt at guilt trips or try to bribe me into submission.
I want nothing to do with him. I don't care how shitty his life has gotten.
Karma is a bitch.
You get what you give.

How many other ways do I have to say it?



Right now, I don't think I'm going home for Easter. I simply don't feel like being beat up or treated like I'm less of a person for being successful.

I love my mom to pieces but that doesn't mean I have to always like her or her actions. And right now, I really am pretty pissed off at her.