Starting over

So I disappeared from the blog world...and I have to admit that I have been a bit of a hypocrite because I have not been dealing with my emotions. Instead - I deal with them at random. And it's showing.

I am so angry constantly. And my patience has never been worse.
I point fingers, I place blame, I refuse to apologize, I push people away and refuse to see what I am doing to myself.

So it's time to start over.
And I found this list floating around in the blog world and thought it was the perfect opportunity to begin dealing with my emotions, issues, and the mess I have become.

So -

Day 1

My current relationship.
Well that's hard - because I have several important relationships in my life.
Angie, Kristy, Erica, Dixie&Macey, and then there is Andy.

I am assuming this question is in the romantic direction.

So Andy...


I met Andy last September at Angie's parents' house. They were having a BBQ for Ashley, Andy's sister. And since I have been adopting any family that will take me, I went along with Angie to the BBQ, not knowing it would involve pool volleyball. Or a single former Marine who I would be completely unable to take my eyes off of while I sat silently in a lawn chair.
Well, being the Facebook stalker expert I am, I friended him totally out of curiosity. (It's always frustrating when people's profiles & pictures are private!)
We started talking, went on a date that lead to hours of beer pong that evening at my hotel room with my sister, missed the Texan's game the next day, and have been attached at the hip since.
It is no secret that we have had some fights, or pissed each other off, or overreacted to silly things.
If you are in a relationship that never experiences those things then something is wrong.
We are both passionate people full of emotion, opinions, convictions while being extremely stubborn.


There is no doubt in my mind, heart, soul, being that I love him with everything I am.

Before he came into my life I was completely disenfranchised from the concepts of Love, Happily Ever After, and being capable of a healthy relationship.
I had just recently gone through a big dramafest with a guy who was definitely not worth it, and he wasn't the first.
I had been struggling with relationships for years. That in itself is a whole blog post better saved for another day.

So as of today, I am proud to say that I am happy with my relationship status, the relationship itself, and the person who I love.

And I never thought I'd get here.