Cold war

I feel like I am in the middle of a cold war. No one is telling me anything today, and apparently no one else either.
I have not heard from the important people over at oilfield at all since Stephen was let go. I don't know how things are being distributed amongst me and my special leader. I don't know if they're going to try to move me back to Buck Creek.
I know nothing.
But people are calling me for answers.
Answers I don't have.

Oil peaked at $48.83 today. I have to admit I got a little excited when I saw that. It has since fallen to $47.17, so my excitement has been lost.

I have to go to Buck Creek after lunch, I suppose they are waiting to tell me how my world will be changing once I get there. I am so anxious I couldn't finish my lunch.

On top of the work drama, I am an emotional mess.

I am all wrapped up in the mess I have created. I am so emotionally attached after I told myself not to end up like this. My secret is more attached than I am, which is almost kind of scary.
I want things I can't have. I want certain things to happen. I want it all.
I'm impatient. I'm emotional. I'm confused. I'm falling.

Ugh, I have to put an end to this before it gets seriously out of hand.