Secret love notes

Dear Secret -

I don’t know how to explain to you the battle going inside my head. My emotions and my heart are saying to let down my guard and just ease into what I’m feeling. But my logical mind is screaming “No! No! NO!”
What I feel for you I haven’t felt in a good while. And the last and only time I felt it, I ended up really hurt, very jaded, and tried to bury those feelings deep in a hole where they could never be drug up again.
I never wanted to fall again for anyone. I wanted to just go on with life, and be guarded and safe. Never vulnerable again.
Yet, here I am. Battling those rogue feelings while I break every rule in my book.
I have always been able to say no when a rule was challenged.
The only other time I couldn't was when I fell before.
I could always keep things as casual as I needed.
Until you.

You are turning my world upside down.
I am free falling with no bottom insight.
I am scared to death I am going to get hurt just like I did before.

I can’t help but hope this works. No matter how the odds are stacked against us, or how politically incorrect it seems.

I need to work on slowly taking my wall down, one brick at time.
Just please be patient. And do not use the “L” word anymore.

Yours always,
your secret.