Wiping the slate

So I haven't blogged much lately. I don't really have a reason why other than I just didn't feel like it.
If you follow me on twitter then you know what's up and what's down with me. Otherwise, sorry for keeping you in the dark.

Life since the layoff has been a crazy but welcomed move from the dark into the light.
It is not something I want to admit, but the two months I spent in planning had put me into a rut. I was depressed, lethargic, apathetic, and just completely unhappy. I drank more than I should have, I was probably on a path towards alcoholism. When they layoff came I couldn't even pretend to be upset over it. I rather be unemployed & broke than have a job I hated with a decent paycheck.
I am glad I was given a bit of vacation, one with secuirty at the end, so I could clear my head before transitioning into my new job at a different division. I was able to leave my bad attitude behind at my old job, and return to my normal self.
I love this job almost as much as I loved working at foundry. Love.
The people are great, the job is right up my alley, and it is a totally different culture over here.
I've made friends with a group of young engineers and have been able to cut ties with Him and the toxic relationship I had gotten myself into.

That in itself has been a serious relief and helped me return to my old self. I realize what I did was wrong and I know karma will catch up with me one day. I've accepted that and asked for forgiveness. Everyone can judge me, but honestly your opinion means nothing to me.

Anyway, for me I am back to living and smiling. I hope I can hold onto this feeling...